Let me start by saying that the psychic world and the world of the unknown has always fascinated and called to me. My earliest memory of this is a palm reading I had done when I was about 12 years old. Apart from that I must tell you that I grew up in a house that was strictly catholic. Any talk of ghosts or psychics was quickly shushed and all of it was nonsense. This didn’t help in my growth in this department. I do however remember being able to make the patterns on my wallpaper in my bedroom dance. By focusing on them, I suppose this was a form of meditation, I could make the patterns seemingly come off the wall and could make them dance around. It was entertaining for me. I don’t even know if this is anything to do with abilities, I just thought it would be interesting to add here. My childhood was filled with god though, and this is a benefit to my growth. Knowing he was always with us helped me feel safe. I always found that I was questioning things learned through the church and school and came to the conclusion when I was in my teenage years that maybe the catholics weren’t right about everything. What about all the other religions of the world? They had to be based on something good. Who was to say who was right? I feel that I have always been searching for the truth and now I am on that path.

I have always been attracted to tarot readers and crystal balls. I bought a set of tarot cards about three years ago but had no one to guide me on how to use them. I have had countless readings by psychics- some were good and some were bad. When I was still in elementary school, I wanted to set up a crystal ball for a science show and do readings for the other students. But had no knowledge of how. I wrote a speech one year about dreams that actually won in my class and was to read it in front of the whole school, but a case of chicken pox stopped me. I was extremely upset. I have always been in tune with my dreams. They were a way to escape from the world and when I would have very vivid ones I would be left with a very special feeling. I used to, and still do, daydream so much that I would be in class and be in a totally different world at the same time. My teacher would have to call my name quite a few times before I would be pulled from wherever it was that I was. As a result of this the other students would laugh at me and this resulted in shyness and introvertion. I felt they were laughing at me because of something wrong with me and this took years to disintegrate. Before I was introduced to meditation and formal training, I relied on my dreams for messages and noticed those special connections to people and situations that I knew somehow were sent for me from above. I always had a feeling that I had some higher power looking out for me to keep me safe from harm as I have put myself into countless situations where things could have gone horribly wrong. Yet here I am today safe and sound.

My introduction to the psychic world formally, came from a coincidense. And we all know that there are no such things as coincidenses right? Everything happens for a reason. I was letting a friend of mine stay with me for a week or so and he was looking for an apartment in the next town over. He had brought a newspaper from this town into my apartment and left it there. So one day I found myself looking in the classified section of this newspaper and there was an ad that immediately caught my attention for a psychic development course. I called immediately and enrolled in the class. This happened 14 months ago and I am so glad I found this. Through this course I learned about meditation, tarot cards and other methods of divination, and it answered my calling. I felt at home and at peace with myself through this course. It opened me up for all the experiences I have had since and the ones I am to have.

When learning to meditate it came easily than I expected. I saw things in meditation immediately and have seen things always in meditation. This was the first experience. After practicing, I found very quickly that I was getting feelings through meditation as well. I knew when my guides were with me by the feelings I received while I was in mediation. And soon after that I was introduced to hearing things. The first time this happened I was on my way home from a store, not in meditation. I heard " go get the stamps ". I had just bought some in the store and was sure they were in the bag. I went home. Sure enough, when I got home and emptied the contents of the bag out, the stamps weren’t there and I had to go back and get them.

When first learning the tarot through this course, we focused on the major cards. I learned quickly that things would just come into my head. The problem was to say them out loud. Confidence is an issue when reading the cards. You can’t stop and rationalize what has just come to you, you just need to say it and more times that not what you are saying will be right. I have also recently realized that by focusing on a person I usually get something on them. I see things around them and they usually don’t make any sense to me but after speaking them aloud, the person knows exactly what I’m talking about.

Opening up myself to this has brought spirituality into my life and has made me feel at peace with myself, god, and those he has sent to watch over me and guide me through this lifetime.

With the protection of god and my spirit guides, a strong force in my life, I have also become aware of the negative energies around us and have been introduced to the fact that they are there. It’s all about choice. Do I want to involve myself with the good forces or the negative? I choose good. And one more thing is not to be afraid as it will block us. The more the forces of good are around us, the more the fear will disintegrate.

One more thing - meditate, meditate, meditate. It will bring you closer to your god, your guides, and will open you up to your intuition, whatever that is that has been chosen for you.